据说十几岁看这样的书会改变人生轨迹

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The Fountainhead | Ayn Rand | Plume

带着问题去读书?好像这次真木有。。。就那天在Amazon淘书,一眼相中,总觉得是以前书单上列过的,果不其然!2014年收录。

终于把砖头一样的《源泉》看完了,有些许不舍。书,有些拿起就想放下,有些拿起却放不下,而《源泉》却没法真正归到这两种的任何一类,就是喜欢这样的调调。

几年前,读毛姆的《月亮与六便士》也有过类似的感情。那时,一边为自己20多岁才读上这样的好书叹息,另一边又不免不了心生难过“为什么要给我读这本书,以后读不到这么好的东西”,幸好在2016的7月机缘巧合,碰到《源泉》。

跃然纸上的人物

电影剧照 Gary Cooper饰Howard Roark

书里人物很多,情节也是多线程,以至要靠画人物关系图,才能跟上节奏。

Howard Roark 走自己路建筑师,信奉egotism,特立独行,离经叛道,长相凛冽。

Peter Keating 建筑师,高情商高颜值低个性,单亲家庭长大,善于保护自己和妥协,很会融入环境而为发挥自己的优势。

Always be what people want you to be. Then you've got them where you want them.
--Peter Keating, The Fountainhead

Dominique专栏作家,人如其名(个人觉得这名挺“作”),富家女,美丽,独立有主见,个性十足气场强大。

Elsworth Toohey  知名专栏作家,高级市侩善攻心洗脑,他几乎可以把身边的人,变得没有思想或灵魂,确切的说,变成完全依附于他的寄生虫。这些人甚至有他的侄女Kate,一个懵懂的天真少女到一个失魂落魄市侩的妇人。也有侄女心爱的Keating,从踌躇满志到人生得意,再到行尸走肉。

Gail Wynand 媒体大亨,自由放肆而桀骜不驯,白手起家创办纽约顶尖报社,以为自己和其他“俗”人不一样,以为自己是“世界中心”,可以控制主宰一切,虽有抗争最终也不得不妥协接受这个世界。

If you make people perform a noble duty, it bores them. If you make them indulge themselves, it shames them. But combine the two and you’ve got them.

--Gail Waynand, The Fountainhead

个人意识vs集体主义

不敢妄用“个人主义”这个词,因为在很多时候,这个词总是带给人负面联想:自私、冷漠等。马克思说,人是一切社会关系的总和。在这个充斥万物连接、资源整合的时代,“个人主义”(individualism) 似乎显得那么格格不入。这样的格格不入不是只有现在这个时代存在,在人类历史上的任何一个小节都在上演。

而个人意识,或者说有强烈个人意识的个人,他的利益与他人毫无关联,他不会为他人牺牲自己的利益,也不会为自己而牺牲他人的利益,这些人是彼此独立的个体。

在这个联接、融合的时代里,如果不肯定个人的价值,何以肯定创造?如果这个世界逼迫个人屈从于集体,势必会扼杀整个世界的活力,那我们怎么走到未来?

故事一开始,是Howard即将被一所建筑学校开除,他的房东Mrs Keating觉得有些可惜又庆幸,因为不用担心自己的儿子Peter受所谓“非主流”Howard的影响。开除前,校长找Howard最后一次挽留。

校长问“Have you thought of your potential clients?”

Howard答道“I don't intend to build in order to serve help anyone. I don't intend to build in order to have clients. I intend to have clients in order to build.”

从Howard对校长的答复似乎就能预料,这个男主是要走一条不一样的路。这句话几乎完美地诠释了Howard的价值观,人生不是来服务别人,而是要追求理想实现自我价值的

不继续剧透,书中有大量充满哲理的对话,有些地方确实很晦涩,比如一些对话,你一言他一语的“交锋”,让脑细胞烧的着急,恨不得打开脑袋来看看。这本书值不值得看?看什么?相信Ayn Rand的自序是最好的答案。

Ayn Rand自序

相比读《月亮与六便士》时,如饥渴遇甘霖的暴殄之读,阅读《源泉》时则是慢嚼细咽的品。想了想,也许离不开年岁的增长,时间的洗礼:

1)对投入这类“闲书”的时间愈加“吝啬”。以前,可以用周末整整一天抱着一个kindle不吃不喝也要看完。而现在,看一本这样的书,要提前规划时间,空出看其他技能书籍之外的时间才能投入。

2)似乎懂得了些许克制。年少时,喜欢一个东西,拼了命似的要占为己有。在阅读上,则是囫囵吞枣,非得从第一页快速看到最后一页,才觉得看完一本书。看完之后会愁然若失,仿佛是得到之后下一秒的失落,圈固住自己,然后又陷入下一个循环。

现在,知道这样的书,它就在那里,不会走不会跑,等着你去欣赏。不会焦急不已地非得看到结局,而是更愿意看完几章,停下来想一想,如果我是xx,会如何选择,亦或是,如果我是作者,会怎么发展这个“故事”。这样的阅读似乎不再是单个空间里的开始和结束,而是有了多个空间里的交融和喜悦。

3)相似的灵魂终将相遇。剧作家廖一梅曾说“ 遇见爱,遇见性,都不稀奇,最难的是预见了解。”《源泉》里那些灵魂的相遇,虽只是作品中的昙花一现,却也让我笃定,遇见了解也会变得更加可能,因为,也许,你想找到的灵魂就是你自己。

4)努力不做“二手货”,他们说,没有点定力的人,无论如何是抵挡不住这个“荒唐世界”的。也许对抗外界对自我的影响,最好的办法是“无视”它。但敢于无视的前提是,你要有才华,你得清楚地知道自己想要什么,也得清楚地知道,自己将要付出什么样的代价。人人都想做Howard,可是最后的最后,多数人都成了Peter那样的二手货。

以前看刘瑜的文章《你比你想象的更自由》,当时只记住了这个标题,觉得喜欢,却不知为何;几年后,翻来这篇旧文再读,没想到,这个竟写的就是《源泉》。

马克思说,人是一切社会关系的总和,兰德却说,人是把「一切社会关系的总和」给揉成一团,再扔到垃圾桶里去的骄傲而已。

--刘瑜《你比你想象的自由》

同样是在几年前发现《源泉》时,看到那样一句话,怔了好久。

人,没有几个是实现了的,大多数人到死,也不是他自己。

希望我们都不会陷入这个“魔咒”,或者说,希望我们都能有勇气踏上寻找自我的路途,在路上经历阵痛之后能时刻重建。

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我是好奇妹陈晓晓,希望今天的文章对你有帮助,记得要开心:)

附部分书摘

It’s said that the worst thing one can do to a man is to kill his self-respect. But that’s not true. Self-respect is something that can’t be killed. The worst thing is to kill a man’s pretense at it…Of course, a quest for self-respect is proof of its lack.

Integrity is the ability to stand by an idea. That presupposes the ability to think. Thinking is something one doesn’t borrow or pawn. And yet, if I were asked to choose a symbol for humanity as we know it, I wouldn’t choose a cross nor an eagle nor a lion an unicorn. I’d choose three gilded balls.

Independence is the only gauge of human virtue and value. What a man is and makes of himself; not what he has or hasn't done for others. There is no substitute for personal dignity. There is no standard of personal dignity except independence.

I don’t see anything evil in a desire to make money. But money is only a means to some end. If a man wants it for a personal purpose—to invest in his industry, to create, to study, to travel, to enjoy luxury—he’s completely moral. But the men who place money first go much beyond that. Personal luxury is a limited endeavor. What they want is ostentation: to show, to stun, to entertain, to impress others. They’re second-handers.

To sell your soul is the easiest thing in the world. That's what everybody does every hour of his life.If I asked you to keep your soul–would you understand why that's much harder?

A self-sufficient ego. Nothing else matters…To ask nothing. To expect nothing. To depend on nothing….

Happiness is self-contained and self-sufficient. Happy men have no time and no use for you. Happy men are freemen.

If you were in love you’d want to be broken, trampled, ordered, dominated, because that’s the impossible, the inconceivable for you in your relations with people. That would be the onegift, the great exception.

Every human soul has a style of its own, also. Its own basic theme. You’ll see it reflected in every thought, every act,every wish of that person, The one absolute, the one imperative in that living creature. Years of studying a man won’t show it to you. His face will. You’d have to write volumes to describe a person. Think of his face. You need nothing else. (所谓相由心生)

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