在我认识你之前，
我知道自己虚弱的样子，
坚持爱自己有多难，
我的声带在瑟瑟发抖，
找回被撕碎的整体，
唤回那脆弱的灵魂。
在我认识你之前，
我陷入了相当一部分黑暗，
那令人绝望的地方，
让我不知道该如何度过。
所有流下的眼泪，
充满了一个巨大的浴缸，
我没有勇气再次站起来，
当崩溃来袭，
除了痛苦，
我一无所知。
很长一段时间，
我忘记了欣赏爱，
眼里只有怀疑、冷漠与仇恨，
直到忘记了微笑的含义。
我知道力量和勇气来自哪里，
你只需要做我的一个Pump，
你若赢得我完全的信任，
面对任何沮丧的事情，
我都能抬起头来战斗。
在我认识你之前，
我是一个不想成为的人，
逃避、放弃、朝令夕改，机会主义，
随着外界环境变换着自己的颜色。
你说生命是一场场的考试，
展开试卷以从容的心态，
试着去理解每一道难题，
不知道的答案就交给上帝。
你牵着我的手走进未来，
然后，
我成为了最好的自己。
分与合/2019
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To my husband
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Before I knew you,
I knew how weak I am,
How hard it is to love myself ,
My vocal cords are shaking,
Retrieve the shredded whole,
Call back the fragile soul.
Before I knew you,
I am caught in a lot of darkness,
That desperate place,
Let me not know how to spend it.
All the tears that flow down,
Filled in a huge bathtub,
I have no courage to stand up again,
When the crash happens,
In addition to pain,
I don't know anything.
For a very long time,
I forgot to appreciate love,
There is only doubt,
indifference and hatred in the eyes.
Until I forget the meaning of a smile.
I know where strength and courage come from,
You only have to get one part of my heart to pump,
If you win my full trust,
In the face of any frustration,
I will look up and fight.
Before I knew you,
I was a person who does not want to be,
Escape、give up、change、opportunism,
As the external environment changes its own color.
You said that life is a test of the field.
Expand the test paper with a calm mindset,
Try to understand every problem,
The answer that you don't know is given to God.
you hold my hand into the future,
later,
I became the best myself.
MeiQi Alvord / 2019
