8/19:【Day 2】The outcome of CET 4 has revealed,and l was so anxious about it,even if l tried hard to calm myself down.These days,l am sleepless （失眠的）.l feel sleepy during the days,which is tied to（与什么有关） my routine.lt was her last time to come here,while l showed no miss for her.
My world seems to be bothered by your moment,but lt is useless to think it over.l am incapable of overcoming our distance and fail to be a good partner with u.
8/20：【Day 3】Sometimes l just fall into thinking about your moment while l am aware of being abandoned.l was deeply touched when my partner made delicious food for me and we made dumplings together.Exausted as me, l did feel fulfilling and satisified .
l saw the zoopita film on my own,and its lines（台词） imprsseed me: to make the wolrd a better place and anyone can be anything,it starts with u and me.
l was suprised when teacher said they may reward us with a journey ticket,no matter it was true or not,l am convinced that only if u bring out the best in you and rack your brains to do your duty, your effort will be paid off.
Just keep your shortcomings in mind and make a little change step by step.
8/21：【Day 4】When he still smiled at me,l suddenly realized that l was so unfriendly to him.His academic performance is so poor,and he almost care for nothing,just smiling here.My heart felt so broken , for my effort didn't work and he actually didn't attach much importantce to his own studies. His lessons was over,which is both a suprise and pity.l haven't tried my best to teach him,and his notebook of error correction hasn't accorded with my mind.But l was relieved .
When l gave a call back to my mum,she just shared the same things with me,and so did l. l did miss her,and really was eager to return to my haven（避风港）.
When informed my uncle is going to go home and l can go too,l was too excited to express my feelings. But l have a crush （迷恋）on them.
8/22：【Day 5】When something comes to an end, we may feel sorrowful,depressed and attached（迷恋的） sentimental
（伤感的sensible）and so forth.
l have been stayed in Haizhu District for almost two months,which is nearly all of my holiday .l was placed in （be set in以什么为背景）a totally strange environment,and the first choice l had was to face it frankly.
When computer exam was completed ,my mind was blank.l just wanted to live freely,but lack of tough foundation and towering talent.lt was not only an exam,but also symbolized my first year in college was over. lt left nothing to me,just some pieces of memory.
l was regret l had wasted my time on so much meaningless affairs.l have to reflect myself,who is childish and navie.
ln the past days,l have gone through many things with them. l was afraid to face the parents of students,but now l can be confident before them.l had been worked for such a long time,and l am badly in need of a break.
8/23:【Day6】 l have heard that seven is a lucky number,and l ever possessed this gift given by the god but lost .Everything has passed,but my heart is still hoping for his coming,which may never occurs. When my brother asked something about him,l just fell in silence with my broken heart.
No matter how hard l try,l am incapable of bridging our distance and saving our future.Sorry, dear.l haven't never kept my dream in mind.
Today, l was at my brother's home and finished the book:Your loneliness ,seems to fail but win.Many sentences written on the book left me a deep impression and warm my cool heart.Just like this:the most remote distance between us is that we are still here,so does our affections ,but the way to our past can't be found.（人还在，情还在，找不到回去的路是我们最遥远的距离。）
Aside from（除了） the book,l also enjoyed a film by myself.It told a story about a girl who racked her brains to be admitted to a key university,no matter how poor was her academic performance .She just hold on her dream,and like most of us,she even wanted to give up,for she was sick of the burden carried on her,and her future looked blank.But owing to her optimistic teacher and her loving mother,she picked up her confidence again and fought for her ideal university all the time.
It cames no suprise that she made it.l was moved to tears.Her diligence and courage stroke into my heart .She just proved herself by her efforts.It comes to me that why l can't be like her,l am just accustomed to my state of comfort.My weight has declined some,which encourages to get more exercise,and regulate my mouth and my desire for eating.
OK,just fight for your only dream.
8/24：【Day7】 l am the captain of my ship and.master of my fate（我就是我人生的主宰）,just stay away from those who tear you down and never accept “No”.
When my best friend had a long call with me,l felt so sensible and touched .What he said just is like a boyfriend who spoke to his apple,but l am not,and so does he.
Nothing accompanys u forever,and l am not in poessession of closed friends anymore .lt is u who will never leave your side and back u all the time.（强调句）
When l get a look of their life,l know that it is not easy for them to make a living.Everyone has his own life, and it makes no sense if we are all the same.
Just find a power that supports u to move forward and to be an excellent person than u were before. Never put tomorrow before your today,remember:learn from today,live for today and hope for tomorrow.
To be confident and to be stronger ,never count on anyone anymore.
〖realized my dream of going home〗
l have been looking forward to going my hometown for a long time,though l had never made it come true . Before my uncle's car arrived,l just waited quietly at home with my elder brother,who is occupied with his plan of selling many women clothes .l suddenly came to realize that l was so ignorant that l had wasted much money on something meaningless and useless .
Those who are ignorant are powerless and scary.lt is you who should be blamed for your being cheated and wasting money casually .（无知的人最可怕，也最无力。因为你无知，所以活该你受骗、乱花钱。）
l also have a look at my brother's life.He skips breakfast and orders the takeout （外卖）for lunch ,and just has normal dinner with his gf.l can understand his situation where he has to make a successful living to substain（维持） his family. In the face of reality,everyone is forced to be stronger ,just with the hope of providing a stress-free,trouble-free and
worry-free life for those who they love.
ln the long car trip,my mind was full of him.l kept asking myself and tried to comfort myself.Dear,l did what l wanted to do,and so you owned me one .We have made promise to go home together, which was one of my wishes .l still believe that l love u and so do u,even though we are apart from each other.Orange, just take good care of yourself .
Although you are absent in my life, l am able to live an organized life,instead of being in a messy.（你不在，我的生活也会井然有序而不是乱成一片）
l fell in sleep with soft music and kept eating nothing in car.l got home in the midnight......So exausted and tired ......
8/26:【Day 9】〖three things l should place importance on.〗（学费，父母，投资）
1.The difficulty of completing my tuition fees（学费）.
l was at a loss when my mother gave me 3,000 yuan to deposit into my bank account.l was suprised and touched ,for my parents score my education highly.My parents,both are farmers,who succeeded in supporting financially three children to go to university .lt reminds me how tough they are,and how appreciative should l be .l have to strike it to my heart that l must put my studies into the first place,desert what l used to be and valve what l have.（学习第一位，抛弃旧我，珍惜我拥有的）
2.So lean is she,so heavy burden he is carried .
When l saw his or her shadows of their image,it occurred to me that they have been so industrious and devoted to us.Some white hair appears on her head,which seems to informe me of her age and her workload.She just carried what was heavier than her,which was beyond of my ability.
3.Give some thoughts to my future,rather than live a mindless and listless life.l am going to graduate after three years,and l have to have something that symbolizes me.Living in a so fierce society, how to make myself irreplaceable is a matter that should be thought it over.
l just don't want to give in before reality.
8/27：【Day 10】〖l just hold the belief that l will be on my own for later future .〗
What impressed me most was that my uncle gave me some money,and some mooncakes were bought . Uncle has made it a habit to give some money to my mother,which reminds me that if u are rich,in possession of much money,u are supposed to share some with your family.Only when u are a boss,can u be so liberal.（慷慨大方）
l went to the place where l finished my high school with my friend,who has been stayed at home for the whole holiday.She has changed a new haircut,and it looks more attractive.We chatted about everything,and l know what she concerned most is her bf,so l asked her.But she may never know what l concern most.We just hung out in the street,where l spent most of my free time with someone.And we saw many beautiful clothes and shoes,but l showed no intention of buying them.Since l got to know about how cheap they are,l just keep calm,repeating to tell myself not to buy them anymore.The street,was full of my past footprints, but l felt so strange that l couldn't recognize which road is right for our destination.
When KFC came into my sight,l remembered someone ever said to me he would bring me to KFC when he had a lot of fortune.Now, everything has changed. We have new happiness,and sorrow also will be updated.Just let it go.
l met with two of my classmates,and then went home with my sister.On our way home,it rained heavily and l fell into sleep .There were many familiar things around me ,such as accent,care and mutual understanding.
The pace of rural life makes relaxed...
8/28:【Day 11】〖The hardship of my grandparents 〗
l hit my grandparents' house with my mom today.There are a few people still living in the small town,leaving it an empty village.
l still remember when l was going to go to college,my grandparents gave me 500,which is really meaningful for me .They have been working so hard for most of their life ,and they also place much importance on our education.They are experienced,industrious and open-minded.
My mother chatted much with her mother,and l just listened to what they said quietly.It is thought to be a happiness too.We stayed four hours or so before we left.....
8/29：【Day 12】〖The memory of my high school's studies〗
My young sister,continues her studies by retrying once more again . l tried to teach her what l still understand,but she seems show no interest in it.She did badly in exercise,which made me feel desperate .Despite her bad performance,she encouraged herself to be positive and try one more again.She showed her regret ,adding that why l choose to return to school again.Maybe,what she is going through is my past.l just taught her some simple grammer ,while she complained a lot and her attitude isn't very well.
These days,electricity was cut off in my hometown.lt gets dark easily and earlier in rural life.When it is nine'o clock, everything is slient,and falling into deep sleep.l am so attached to this environment which is far away from noise and complication in big cities .
8/30:〖Day 13〗【What should l do before my birthday】
l have been looking forward to my birthday for a long time.lt is not only a birthday that symbolizes my growth ,but also is a promise made by him.Something memorable was found ,which reminded me of my middle school when l was a little girl and he a little boy.
We have accompanied each other for seven years .And we know each other well, but ultimately we broke up.
My heart was broken, not knowing what to do except from being silent. But l really care about it, and want to save it,rather than turn a blind eye to my inner voice.So l took photos of our past,to share it in my moment .
l didn't know what result l would get, so l told myself l may get the same result.Actually,l don't know what result should be ideal .My mind was full of him.......
8/31:〖Day 14〗【Welcome for your coming back】
Dear,l was so glad that we ultimately broke the ice of silence ,and l was so eager to hear from u.
We chatted much,and got something about mutual life.l was too excited to calm down.
U know,l thought it impossible for us to get together again,though l still miss u.l was also sorry that l hadn't found u on your birthday .
We have missed a lot,So l have to learn to valve u ,and everything around me.lt is u who give me the confidence to try again and the courage to move on and the belief to make a change.Thank you for your coming .
l will have a blueprint of our future and just be more confident in my life because l know those who lack confidence are bound to be defeated by reality.And l won't because of your support.
It seems that our future looks bright and l hope so.l will change myself and make up my mind to get a noticeable weight loss.
9/1：〖Day 15 and day 1〗【The last day , the first day at my 20 birthday】
Maybe l have the courage to change,to believe and to embrace a bright future.l shouldn't indulge myself in eating too much junk food,like a foodie.lt looks like l broke my promise made by myself.
lt may take me some times to adapt to his coming.We are less likely to be apart from each other again,but l cannot count on him too much ,for we should own our space.After all,our priority is to grow up instead of being in love.
lt comes little suprise that many people succeed in weight loss because they keep a balance between diet and sports .As for me,the relationship between both isn't very well.l cannot handle it on purpose,which makes me far away from my only dream.
OK,take it easy,just be yourself.
Try one more time,and make up your mind and if u persevere in regulating your diet,u will be successful in weight loss.
9/2:〖Day 16 and day 2〗【The day of leaving and beginning】l was almost sleepless last night, just wandering in the ocean of my mind.When it was time for me to leave for Guangzhou,l was so sensible that l forgot the road to where l desire to go .My parents and l got up early to catch the bus.ln fact,it is useless to arrive there in a precious time because there were people who missed the right time .And the significance of getting ahead of time left me a deep impression.l also reminded myself that the road to my school was far away from home,so l must make every return meaningful. Say goodbye to u, to my parents ,and to my hometown.l will strive for a better life ,and will come back with a new appearance.
During my trip journey, l just listened to English songs,which confused me a lot .But it is another form of studying English .l cannot understand well what the Singers sing but it is another language to convey my feelings .
A sentence stroke into my heart:those who more disciplined about themselves,are more confident and ambitious.l quietly back this point,for if u are more organized ,u are more likely to get to know what priority is in your whole life. lt seems l have a tendency to count on him, and l don't want to live for his care and love.
Whatever, we should be more mature instead of indulging ourselves in love.
l have set a goal for myself.l have to be on a diet and pick up self-control（学会自律）,which is consistent with（与……一致） my ambition. Just try to eat less and do sports more ,maybe l will be more slim.
9/3：〖Day 17 and day 3〗【Just to be what u want to be】
Most of time,we always forget what we have and long for something that is remote from us.When u have a glimpse of other's misfortune,u may truly realize how luckily u are!So cherish what u have and try to pursue what u want rather than wander in your own mind.（比你不幸的人还坚强的生活，那你呢）
When l heard of my brother's situation where he is in dilemma,l was afraid that he couldn't support his family very well.Now,l know when my brothers are not involved with love,so they don't have to spend their time in it,which makes them concerned about my studies.（There is no need for them to waste some time in love.）l always complain about the absence of my sister,but l am truly lucky to have three brothers.They all care about me in their ways to provide me a inclusive,stress-free,hassle-free,and trouble-free environment.l should be appreciative of what they did for me,and learn to be more mature and independent..（哥哥们生活工作也不容易，所以你要独立一点点）
lt came as a great surprise that my roommates bought a cake for me.l had never thought about it because l thought they may neglect it while they didn't.We will together for four years ,during which we may treat each other like our family.So just love them and be happy with them.Be yourself too.
The moment when l was desperate flashed my mind ,for l scared if he abandon me again.l called him immediately when l went out of dormitory.lt came little suprise that he was sleeping but l still bothered him .He just fell into sleep and knew nothing about what l said.
9/4：〖Day 18 and day 4〗【set a goal and then strive for it】
The last thing l should do is to take up his time too much and that of mime.lt seems that l tend to rely on him.lt takes me sometime to get accustomed to his coming.
l got up late today.And l set some goal,among which l put weight loss in the first place.l desire to get slim and then l can turn up in a totally new appearance.l don't want to meet u in what l look like now.lf l haven't changed myself completely, it won't be a gift for your leaving.Sometimes,l want to ........
Today,l met my brother.And l told him about my feelings and told him not to worry about me.My second brother gave me a call when l was on my way .He just told me not to ask brothers for money except for him.
Brother,l want to tell u that l won't ask u for money ,either.l will stand on my feet ,and l will earn my living expense.So,it is of great importance for me to grasp time ,to invest myself.
Everytime when l played with my roommates,it may look like l am indulged.Therefore,l should learn to accept “No”.
9/5:〖Day 19 and day5〗【The end of freshman,the start of sophomore】
It is the first day when we all become sophomore,which means that we are not unfamiliar with our college anymore .There are many new courses in this term,including four optional classes and six compulsory courses（required courses）.During the first lesson,many teachers may instruct us how to spend the rest of our campus lives .
l also inform myself that under no circumstance can l skip classes.lt can't be a solution through the whole campus studies if l persevere in a wrong way.
Just stick with competing with yourself and never put limitations on your potential.Put studies first before anything else and be confident.
9/6：〖Day 20 and day 6〗【The change 】
l have decided to be attentive in class and try to sit in front rows instead of the last rows.（上课专心，争坐前排）
Every new subject with a totally strange teacher comes as little suprise.What impressed me most is the way how teachers introduced themselves and subject involved in .When l met English teacher again,l was so glad.But when asked about result of CET-4,l kept silent .Although l have passed the test,l felt little happiness .Should l complain about the outcome?l hadn't prepared it well and did it badly ,maybe l was blessed with God.
During English class,l can grasp many new words easily,which makes absorbed in his class.When it comes to my past holiday, l may summarize it using following words:fruitful,emotionally rewarding ,demanding,changing and so on.
lt taught me how to be kind to children and how to be considerate and contributing.There are many disadvantaged and economically deprived people who are living a impoverished lives.So try to make change in campus and try for more.
My Mom called me but l didn't answer it right now.l knew it was cruel to tell her not to call me if she wanted but it may affect my studies.She places much importance on my academic performance than me,which makes me guilty and shamed .So l won't play mobile phone in class if unnecessary.
These days,l don't go to jogging anymore.So l picked it up and ran four laps around our school.l was so slowly but l was delighted.Exausted as l was,my heart was filled with a sense of achievement.l wanted to give up in the first lap,while l told myself to carry on .To make weight loss ,is one of my dream.l don't want to leave it behind.
So,make it a rule that go jogging in the morning and afternoon ,and try to eat less and do more sports.（少吃多运动）
9/7：〖Day21 and day7〗 l got up in a early time to go jogging.Sleepy as l was,l just ran slowly .l met with those who cleaned our campus,and l felt warm.There were many sceneries in the morning,and l took a photo to memorize today.One year has passed,l was a freshman last year but now turn into a sophomore.When walking in front of many of them,l was scary but told myself to be
l was exausted while l finished my running,it gave me a sense of achievement and it is pressing（迫切的） for me to succeed in weight loss.
Last year of today ,l turned into a freshman .My brother accompanied me but left myself here.The last thing l should do is to miss them when they are not in my side.
9/8：【The ability of thinking independently】
Many new courses has been introduced,and the significance of thinking independently is placed much emphasis.What Kejian said came into the point directly and l found myself ignorant.This semester,many optional courses is tied to law,which makes me feel my defect in law.
Our motto is:thinking completes thought,which provides access to success（思考成就思想，思想成全梦想）
l am busy with my studies and attentive in class,for l want to be a totally different myself and want to change. The only dream is something that keeps me motivated. l valve what l have.
There are many socially disadvantaged and economic impoverished people who still strive for a better life.There is no reason for me not to promote myself.l am sleep-deprived（缺觉的）.Undoubtedly,l have to be self-disciplined to be the queen of my Kingdom.
It is useless for me to tell them about my situation where they cannot understand it.So just be yourself and take a leap of faith,to change,to believe ,to embrace and to succeed one day.
9/9：【The first day of my team reunion】
You forgave me,treating me like my boyfriend.l didn't know how to convey my feelings about u ,who both play the role of soulmate and brother.Even if l was late,leaving u wait for me about an hour ,u still complained about nothing.
l am so appreciative of what u give me.l know how hard a life u are living ,and understand u care me so much.（谢谢你一直都在）
Today,my team got united.The hardness,the sweat,the tears, are filled with my heart.l was
not in a good condition ,and l wanted to give up myself ,but l didn't.The Marathon,is physically and mentally demanding and challenging for me,but it is also emotionally rewarding.There are many reasons why u gave up ,while there is only reason why u still carry on it.The passion for running has been fade out, and why l am persistent in it is out of love .
We were required to finish half an hour of jogging.In the course of running,l relentlessly told myself that l have to move on.If l stopped my step,it was a symbol of giving up,which was the last thing l should do.The only reason why l keep
motivated on running is just because when l run in my speed ,it can give me a sense of blank（空白感）.
9/10:【The suprise of being a teacher】
Last night,l came to the place where l stayed almost two months .l got familiar with everything here ,and l have a crush on it.But my routine would completely change if l take it for granted that it is home to my soul.
l dreamt a dream about my ex-bf,which can be called the first lover.But it was in a mess in my mind.l don't know how will l make up my mind if he comes back to my side.Maybe l will decline.l am less likely to hurt him again and it is unwise for him to start with me again.We all have been changed ,and we are not who we used to be.There are many feelings that l want to share with u,but we get less contact.Will we break up again? l don't know what the future holds .l just want to be a financially and mentally independent person,who is sensible,positive and optimistic towards life.
When l was rewarded with a trip ticket and mooncakes,my heart was filled with appreciation and strong love. To be honest, l wanted to change my job but now won't.
If u are enough excellent,u will have a performance no matter where u are.It is truly important for me to be ture for myself.
9/11：【The same problem we encountered again】
l was so moved when we got together again and we continued to do our work.l was sleepless when u promised u would call me later but u didn't.Maybe we all get accustomed to what we used to be.But when u turned a blind eye to me,l was extremely broken ,with my tears slipping down.
U said u had no idea and just refused to reply me ,which made me feel worthless in your world.We have many different views about love,since we are seperate love,why we don't bridge the distance between us? l was badly hurt by my behavior,not knowing how to address such problem about affections.
9/12：【 lt seems l was busy with my studies】l am looking forward to the coming of national days,which provides the opportunity for both of us to have a gathering.
9/13:【The importance of thinking independently】
lt is the ability to have your own thinking that makes u distinguished from others.l am trying for a better life.
9/14:【The problem u encounter is that u think too much 】
U are less likely to contact with me when u are free,which makes me sense u don't care about me at all.Feeling exausted and fatigued, the only choice l make is to jog,to run.The belief that just go to jog when u want to cry,letting sweat and tears evaporate is firmly supported by me.lt is unwise for me to count on u too much,and it is pressing for me to bridge the distance between us.My mind ,was full of u .（缩小距离）
9/15：【A sense of well-being】
My mind was wandering last night,contributing to my sleeplessness.l got up so early in the morning with the purpose of catching a bus feeling sleepy. There were many people rushing to buy a ticket and l was angry for my brother's being late.My anger was softened when we finally began our trip to Dongguan.
Everyone was drawn to her coming, and it was likely that they all favored her. When we chatted about our family and later future,l found myself worthless,losing my position .
9/16：【My trip was over】
l was feeling unwell （不好）when taking subway.l was deeply touched when my Dear uncle handed me 100. Looking back on mystudies of journey ,they have been supported us to continue our studies.In fact,many of them lay much emphasis on studies,thinking it is of great significance for us to be a well-rounded person.
9/17:【keep a balance beween studies and sports】
lt seems that l am occupied with many affairs ,but l can't get the point of my life.When a day was over,l felt many things haven't been done,for l just felt sleepy .......
With a strong desire to achieve my goal of 600,l am clearly to put priorities in the first place.l went through loss of u,so l am extremely confident about my future as long as l am motivated.
9/18：【The absence of jogging】
l found less passions to write my dailys,just having no idea to describe my life. l am looking forward to the coming of next holidays,while afraid of facing the agnoy of separation（分离的痛苦）.
l am far away from my dream,which is hidden by myself.
l was beat（累的）.l am 20,but it seems that l am not accountable for my life.
9/19:Occasionally, l found less desire to share what happened to me with u.You can't be in my shoes to go through what l experienced.
Marathon,is able to make u strong both in body and soul.
l am living on a tight budget（过得艰辛），counting the days of my holiday.When thinking of his arrival,my heart is delighted .Afraid of the moment when we are away from each other,l force myself to strive for a bright tomorrow.
9/20：There is a close link between my mood with u.We all take it for granted that what we own now is reasonable without deep thinking.
l found my life in a mess,with no direction at all.如果我还有梦想，我为什么不去努力？
9/21：l just want to challenge myself,so l told teacher about my inner voice.To be economically independent,l have to struggle for a irreplaceable myself.
l tasted the happiness of giving others a hand.lt was really touched when u did something sincerely by your heart,which may be paid off.
You are expected to accompany me more time,if u don't,the best choice for us is to get apart again.
9/22：The best promise is that u will be my side for the rest of your life.lt is the last thing that we take it for granted that we count on each other all the time.There is a link between my feelings and your response.But l learn how to be wiser when we are in different places.l am so longing for your arrival,appreciative of your coming back again.
9/24：l am not sick of my part-time job as l expected,just savoring the moment when l am the guide of them.Maybe, there still something l can't leave behind.（因为爱，所以坚持）
When u gave me a voice, my heart was touched. l am counting days for your coming,and l will be more confident .（你的回来，是我最大的自信）
9/25：l failed to pass the exam,doing badly in my studies as well.（兼职没过，差一分领奖学金）.
My mood, was in a low spirit,feeling myself ignorant.
9/27：My mind fell into a blank state,not aware of what happened outside.Beat as l am, l didn't complete my routine .My dear brother transfered 1000 to me ,which warns me to be economically independent.
U are expected to strive for your own future,and to slience your uncertain ideas.虽然课很无聊，可是我不能逃。毕竟，他们是老师。自己已经不是重点大学的学生，真的应该更努力，努力活出自己的模样，而不是堕落。
9/28:Forthcoming national holidays,are both a happiness and challenge to me.It took me a few months to accustom myself to your absence ,which l live on my own.But your comingback again boosts my confidence,increase a sense of well-being.
l have a deepimpression of your leaving,and l was truly hurt when u just kept silent to me.Please, do not leave me again and do not hurt me again,l can't stand it.
9/29：They all skipped class,except me. Many things should be lasted ,to make it a rule,but l gave up half of my way.l am not a good student, who keep her dream and voice in secret,being afraid of presenting her own standpoint.l am not qualified for those who are rewarded by our country. （从头到尾，我都不是一个好学生）l am incapable of looking down on others,since everyone is equal.（没有资格嘲笑他人，应该嘲笑的是自己）
9/30：The first month during my 20,has totally passed.Many goals set by me haven't accomplished,except one:never skip class.（从不逃课）.Recently,l have been sleep-less,and l have a bad sleep at noon.My mind was in a blank......
There are many things waiting for me to complete .What l desire has come,but l feel more loss than happiness .（我有点不知所措，因为既期待又害怕。和你一起奔向天涯，不管穷途，不管末路。）
10/1：When we met again,my holiday began.My heart was beating when l saw u at the first sight.l found myself crushed on u.（你来，我接。只是不应该让你穿越人山人海过来）
When u are my side，others'greetings seem to be a bother for me.l was less patient with my Mom when referring to my track .l know she was badly hurt ,feeling worthless to her sons marriage .l felt her tears slipping down her face ,and l was also unable to do anything to promote their affairs.l just comforted her that it was none of your business anymore .U just completed your task and for the rest of their lives ,it should be their choices.The moment u said u were helpless and worthless ,l truly understood your worry and fear ,which are useless .Having phoning with u,my mood was in a low spirit .U made me feel more than what u said to me.It is time to take accountability for myself .The society is fierce and cruel .（她说她对自己子女的婚姻什么也做不了的时候，我知道她的心会是多难受。摆在面前的无能为力，心急如焚的迫切，无奈两者没有一个平衡点。我知道，我也是该长大了。）
10/3：l was accustomed to your exitence.l was less confident when facing u.Sorry......my inner mind fell into a deep frustration.
10/4:When we got together,joy was filled with my whole heart.So caring was u ,and excellent ,that l was adorable for u .（相聚匆匆，简单平淡就是幸福。有你的陪伴，再长的路也不怕。只是，害怕离别的车站把所有的回忆都停留在昨天。）
10/5：When shopping with u,u prefer to choose better objects at an unaffordable price but l declined. At present,we all count on our brothers to support us,and occasionally we can't meet our daily needs .It is unwise for us to waste too much money on daily life.When we get economically independent, we are able to buy what we desire.
My tears slipped down when l saw your departure.（你的别离，是我眼泪的降临。我不舍，不忍你离去。与你一起的点滴，已经成为记忆的画面。那一刻，我痛恨自己不能跟你走。）
10/6：You are always considerate for me,and u prepared breakfast for me.l got many from u , u never complained about it.（谢谢你--哥。）
l get accustomed to what we were ,but l need to move on my routine.（该坚持，该好好做人了。等我有钱，瘦下来，我就过去找你。）
Just be yourself and to pursue what u desire.
And u have a dream .U abandon it,hurt it,forget it ,but still remember it .Just try again ,one more time.Lay emphasis on what u are fond of ,and never give up and give in.（其实教育者的素质远比教给小孩子的知识要重要得多。）
10/8：【Just be myself】
U are more likely to be regret on what u didn't do than the things u did do.Either day runs u,or u run day.（要么日子掌控你，要么你掌控日子。）
10/9：【To act in a way u desire,not to pretend ,just be what u savor】
If u don't put effort into what u really enjoy,it can't be called “love”.If u take no action to what u want to be,it just a remote dream.
U have to try so hard,to live as u expect.（谢谢你一直都在，谢谢你。可是，我想要更努力，不想要你迁就这样的我。）
10/10：It is so hard for me to get a reduced weight.My mind is struggling when faced with varied diet.l may choose something l can afford to make ends meet.
When U finish your priority ,u get a sense of accomplishment .Never get stuck in daily life and weighted down accountabilites .（豆点滴的汗水滴落在塑胶跑道上，是我对肥胖的不妥协。）
U have your own dream,which distinguishes U from others.U must be more excellent,more persistent than u imaged. Your dream already can be achieved, if you put your whole heart into it. So familiar with everything around me that l tend to take a blind eye to them without hesitation. l come to understand there is something u must keep it to yourself,without sharing with anyone .
Today, my closed friend received a suprising birthday party .She is the one l desire to play with and to mature into a contributing,aspiring,enterprising person.（剑霞，谢谢你。希望我们友谊长存。）
When l wake up in the morning, my mind comes to in a mess,which l am trying to change.
When we acknowledge our defects frankly,it is the first step for us to transform ourselves completely. When l put you before anything else,l am afraid that one day u would leave me nothing but dismay and misery.
U are my boy friend now, but l am less dependent on u ,since l know u are always excellent ,and it is natural that l am expected to be the one like u .l miss u a little.
l found myself lest confident when faced with unexpected situation and less competent .
My English level is so poor while l always omit it.
And l made up my mind to get a reduced weight.If l have been working so hard,why l still feel less confident on myself? l was so fragile that even cannot stand any storm.
A negative mindset is just like something poisonous ,which may kill all your aspiring ambitions and hinder your step to go forward.
U can't give in on what may conquer u ,but to combat them.
10/14:【The same place with different accompany presents various views. 】
At the cost of my valuable time,l choose to hang out with my roommates ,which may seem like to be mistaken.We hold different views on something,which shows our difference and background. They cannot imagine how tight a life l am living ,and they just urge me to sing for fun,but l declined. To be a principled,highly motivated,enterprising,aspiring and giving person is my aim.
All of u have no need to worry about your expenditures because your parents support u while l am not. （走跟你走过的路，看过的风景，整个心窝都是你。就算是坐公交，跟你在一起也是最大的幸福。因为遥远和稀少，所以凸现珍贵。如果有一天，我沉沉地睡过去了，请不要叫醒我。）
10/15：【 越装佯 、吹嘘 越欠缺】
My body was extremely exhausted and frazzled. l show no interest in my studies. l kept asking myself what my life is holding for? Step by step ,to make a difference to my own life.
l found nothing can be shown before them.One year has passed,l still remain what l used to be .（同乡会迎新，让我发现自己的确没有什么好炫耀的。有的时候，想太多。想要给你舞台，你却没有什么拿的出手的。）
10/19：【To fight for my only dream】
A campus life without romantic relationship is imperfect.Strike a balance between studies and sports.How to make good use of your free time is tied to your ambition,what you really desire in your inner mind.To be
self-assured provides u a feelings of identity.
经济独立 思想独立 感情独立
To be economically and emotionally and mentally independent.
l am reluctant to comprise if my day seems too to be a commonplace.People tend to look back on their past,and omit what they truly own .
l was extremely fatigued.Marathon is both physically and mentally demanding and challenging for me,but emotionally rewarding.
l carve for a reduced weight,but l don't take any practical actions.（真心想要瘦下来，我一定会瘦下来！）
10/25：【To be what u want to be】
Many people view seperate love as unsuccessful relationship, while l just slience down those voices .lt is essential to have faith in each other,and we have to endure some sufferings before we get together finally.l won't give up on u with the hope of u .（千万人看不好异地，我只是努力让这些声音消失。）
10/26：《try for a whole new life》
l was hurt when l saw my shadow from her,and l was crushed in the deep heart.l want to cry over your shoulders but u are absent.U can't comfort me instantly ,so u can't be my very accompany,but l tend to rely on u,accustomed to your exitence.Afraid of my ignorance,l must free myself to strive for a better life.（等我没什么钱了的时候，我终于也知道我是得多努力去赚钱去养活自己。不只是现在，还有未来。现在还年轻，为什么要以二十岁的年纪，过着六十岁的生活呢？还年轻，还有梦，做自己喜欢的事情就好。）
11/2:【To strive for a balance between my part-time job and my hobby,but l failed. 】
l was so anxious and desired to go outside to go through more,but l had no choice but to follow my routine.Occasionally,l am tired of what l did .
When l accompanied them and took myself for their role model, l found myself ignorant and youthful.l just wanted to grow again with all of u ,and with the hope that u will stay here some day just like us.
11/3：【The unexpected expresses and the wellbeing u gave me】
l was so sorry that these days,l was wondering whether we should stop and leave us a space.When l received your express one by one,my heart was filled with delight and move.l was so appreciative of what u did for me.Thank you for your eight-year companion.
l learn how to pursue what l am eager for.
Currently,l have cleared my aim ,and begin to move forward step by step.
11/4：【l desire on your side】
When we talked to each other, time seemed to slip away faster.对不起，我会好好相信你，跟你一起走下去的。我也会努力克服“异地”这个关系，努力地瘦下去。谢谢你相信我，余生请多多指教。
11/5：【a sense of pride】
When l dress myself up, l was joyous and it came to me that what l did now made me looks more attractive and mature.l was appreciative of whom l met .Despite some hardship l went through,it is truly worthwhile to hold on to it.The more u give,the more u will receive.
When u are upset,the awesome way to console U is to chat more with u and get U distracted from your sorrow.lf we were brave enough to speak our thoughts at that time,what result we may get currently? There is nothing to regret ,just go ahead and move forward,to change we can .（如果年少的我们足够勇敢，现在的我们会不会就不一样？可是没有如果，我们能够做的就是继续前行。）
11/6：【The wellbeing of running】
lt has been a long time since l put running aside.When l picked it up again,l felt a sense of accomplishment .l will try hard,and endeavor to make progress .l just desire to be serious about everything in my life.（我只是想认真地生活）
l also wanted to give up ,but if l do so ,it means that l lost my dream forever.Today,we had a 拔河 contest.Having used up my strength,l was extremely beat（精疲力尽的）.When we finished our match,we united again. When u accomplished something exceptional with your fellow,U would feel the wellbeing .
Despite what l experienced,l chose to go for my team. It is ture that u give up something for various reasons but adhere to it for just one simple reason.（有很多放弃的理由，坚持的理由只有一个。）
When l show u my attractive photo,what u saw isn't beauty but my whole figure shape. A little frustration flashed my mind ,but l came to realize that what matters to u isn't my Outlook but my health.（真正关心你的人，看见的不是你外表的光环，而是你光环背后的辛酸。）
If l don't look back over my past,l would never realize that how much l adored u when l was young.Many things have been considerably changed ,while u remain .l can't ask for more from u,without paying u nothing.
U trust me,and so do l.
When l endeavor to lead a life l picture in my mind,l found it tough to stay it on track.l had a crush on u.
11/10:【It is getting cold 】
More colder it is,more lazy we will be.
11/11【The single day】
l wasn't so attached to our home team.
All what l did just wanted to be appreciative of what l received.
l was hurt when l walked alone in the playground.There are many things we have to face frankly.l was......repeatedly told myself not to be what l disliked.（现在我们所忍受的，都是必须的。在同乡会里面，我找不到什么归属感。可能，爱只是唯一。）
11/12～16【fail to trace my daily routine 】
It seems useless and meaningless when l repeat the familiar sentences. But the moment l expect to quit, someone and something flashed my mind.l tried again and again ,until l was null at it.A blueprint was pictured by me,where l master a fluent English and engage in what l adore.
ln the last P.E lesson, l would fall down if my fellows hadn't grasped me tightly. The destination was out of my reach,and l was feeling desperate.Thanks to god and the assistance of them, l survived finally.
When how to complete a task becomes a hot-disscussed issue,so indifferent was l ,just like a bystander（旁观者）.
There are many things l have to balance their pros and cons（利弊）. The lesson was over,but it impressed me most and l hope it can accompany me for the rest of my life .